I fucking swear, if AIM closes my ff one more friggin' time while I am making this journal, I will just give up and not bother.

I am going to be off of dA kinda for a while.
Why kinda? I will come on only to check my notes and to make sure a few people are ok.
I am questioning things, thus having 'friend' problems.
Not only that but at least 3 of my other friends are having emotional problems of their own, and I would rather be trying to help them.
I just have far too much on my mind right now.
So yeah...

And freaking Amazon . co . uk!!!
They have actually charged me for those Warriors book twice AND have also charged my father through his card.
How much fucking money are they gonna take?
No more! I removed payment details from my account.
You would think you can trust a huge thing like Amazon... apparently not.


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You know what I am like, I likes tags.
And this is one of the few I have never done.
I AM TAGGING PEOPLE, SO THERE!
-using this as excuse to not feel so miserable and bleh-

I stole this from because I did.

Rules:
- You may mention as many people as you'd like per question.
- Use :icon USERNAME: or :dev USERNAME: without the space to link to a person.
- You can explain why if you'd like, or just link the person only.
- Please tag a person/some people at the end to keep the quiz rolling!

Who is your top favourite artist?
I really cannot decide from my 5 faves.

Who are some other artists you admire/like?
Well, I will just use this space to list my 5 faves.


Who is your significant other?


Who have you had a relationship with? (exs/current)
I don't feel like listing my passed girlfriends right now...

Who are you related to?
Only , he is my younger cousin. He kinda quit dA some time ago though.

Who is your best friend?
I may not be hers but yeah

Who are some of your other close friends?
FFF fine I will list a few here.

Gah just check my friend list below my journal, would you?

Who do you look up to (personality-wise)?


Who annoys you?
He is a real asshole!

Who do you know in real life?
and some others but idrc about them
I do kinda know and too but they live a long way away.

Who do you/have you talked on the phone with?


Who do you talk to with outside of deviantART regularly? (IRL, Messenger, other sites, ect.)
There are more but these are the most common.

Who makes you laugh the most?
and

Who gives you the most support?
It varies on occassions but nearly always is and

Who do you roleplay with?
Nobody anymore.

Who's characters do you draw a lot, besides your own?
and that is all really.

Who's fan-characters or OC's are your favourite?
I don't really know.

Who are your oldest friends that you still talk with?

I have talked to them both for over 3 years now and still talk to them.
With both of them I have had moments where we went silent.

Who are your oldest friends that you no longer talk with?
Um... they aren't classed as friends in that sense, are they?

Who should take this quiz? (This means you're tagged!)
idk because most of the people I tag completely ignore the tagging so I am gonna paste a load of people here, and yeah, they can do it if they want to.
But only if they want to.


And I am adding the list and such from the last journal here too. If you didn't take part last journal, please do so here.

Warriors. You must have realised by now that I am currently a huge fan of the series [its about a group of wild cats that live in 4 separate clans]

Now, I have a few ideas of something... BUT for it to work I need as many of my watchers as possible to find out the following:-
01. What their Warrior name would be
02. What clan they would be from.
Finding these things out is easy, and doesn't take too much time... So only if you wouldn't mind, can you do the following plz?

Go to [link] and once the page has loaded, look to the left, there are a few options. Please click on Games and Extras.

Once in there, please click on Warriors Games.
This is the page where you find out the required things.
Firstly, please click the Consult StarClan for your Warrior Clan. You will be asked 16 short questions. Please answer them honestly.

Once you have gotten your Clan name, please remember it, then click the link below that says Consult StarClan for your Warrior Name.
Please enter your full first name and the full name of your hometown. If you live in a city then just put the city name XD
Don't worry, nobody will be able to see what you typed in.
Once you have done that, you will be given your Warrior name.

If possible, can I ask you all to do those things and then in a comment, tell me what your Warrior Clan and Warrior name is? C:
As I said, there is a reason I am asking this, but for now, that is gonna be kept secret C:
But the more people that do this, the better C:

Oh, and if you are curious. My Warrior name is Spottedclaw and I am from WindClan C:

So yeah :3

I know it seems weird for me to be asking this, but it would help me alot if you could take a few minutes to do this for me ^^

Thunderclan:
=frostyman2294 Hawkeyes
=Aki-Hikari Leopardpelt
~Kiba-Kurokage Bramblepath
~LottieDottie Spottedpelt
~BrunetteMenolly Scartalon

Riverclan:
=whitewolflover94 Spottedshadow
=Lovethelord0922 Hawkpelt
~Sotoro Fuzzylegs

Shadowclan:
=OneWhoLostTheHope Fuzzybreath
*Latieonx Spottedfire
~Twila101 Mudmask
*TwilightTheEevee Wildeyes
~Res6 Scarfire
*FireLeana Leopardbelly
~Kristopher-Mordan Swiftnose
=thezules Brambleface
~GrennaSaosin Spottedheart
~SunnyHanna Mudclaw
~Jiiojioppo Raintalon
~Mouseychu Windtalon
~Wild-Freek Scarclaw
=Haru-dozo Leopardlegs

Windclan:
=Spite170 Spottedclaw
*nadare-sama Brightshadow
~kekerica1 Wildshadow
*Teddy33 Scarnose
*princess-tarot Leopardheart
~Shadowdog534 Hawkheart
*Symbu Hawkfire
~Okamifan Loudfire
~HijackedaRainbow Hawkeyes
=ShadowFang777 Rockshadow
=Eevie-chu Hawkwish


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Hi c:
Nothing big really, but I may do something based on how many do this for me, and what results are found C:

Warriors. You must have realised by now that I am currently a huge fan of the series [its about a group of wild cats that live in 4 separate clans]

Now, I have a few ideas of something... BUT for it to work I need as many of my watchers as possible to find out the following:-
01. What their Warrior name would be
02. What clan they would be from.
Finding these things out is easy, and doesn't take too much time... So only if you wouldn't mind, can you do the following plz?

Go to [link] and once the page has loaded, look to the left, there are a few options. Please click on Games and Extras.

Once in there, please click on Warriors Games.
This is the page where you find out the required things.
Firstly, please click the Consult StarClan for your Warrior Clan. You will be asked 16 short questions. Please answer them honestly.

Once you have gotten your Clan name, please remember it, then click the link below that says Consult StarClan for your Warrior Name.
Please enter your full first name and the full name of your hometown. If you live in a city then just put the city name XD
Don't worry, nobody will be able to see what you typed in.
Once you have done that, you will be given your Warrior name.

If possible, can I ask you all to do those things and then in a comment, tell me what your Warrior Clan and Warrior name is? C:
As I said, there is a reason I am asking this, but for now, that is gonna be kept secret C:
But the more people that do this, the better C:

Oh, and if you are curious. My Warrior name is Spottedclaw and I am from WindClan C:

So yeah :3

I know it seems weird for me to be asking this, but it would help me alot if you could take a few minutes to do this for me ^^

Thunderclan:
=frostyman2294 Spottedeyes
=Aki-Hikari Leopardpelt
~Kiba-Kurokage Bramblepath
~LottieDottie Spottedpelt
~BrunetteMenolly Scartalon

Riverclan:
=whitewolflover94 Spottedshadow
=Lovethelord0922 Hawkpelt

Shadowclan:
=OneWhoLostTheHope Fuzzybreath
*Latieonx Spottedfire
~Twila101 Mudmask
*TwilightTheEevee Wildeyes
~Res6 Scarfire
*FireLeana Leopardbelly
~Kristopher-Mordan Swiftnose
=thezules Brambleface
~GrennaSaosin Spottedheart
~SunnyHanna Mudclaw
~Jiiojioppo Raintalon
~Mouseychu Windtalon
~Wild-Freek Scarclaw

Windclan:
=Spite170 Spottedclaw
*nadare-sama Brightshadow
~kekerica1 Wildshadow
*Teddy33 Scarnose
*princess-tarot Leopardheart
~Shadowdog534 Hawkheart
*Symbu Hawkfire
~Okamifan Loudfire
~HijackedaRainbow Hawkeyes


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Well, I haven't done a journal like this in a while.
So why not?
I will feature 3 art pieces [of my choice] of EVERY user that makes a comment within this journal, until the thumbnail/icon limit hits max. Or until I get bored etc.
I said I would feature everyone.
HOWEVER!!! I will NOT be displaying Pokemon artwork. It would be nice to see something other than that.
I will also give a 1 month subscription to one of the users that I feature.
Why only a month? Because idk its an extra and you shouldn't complain? :3

Oh and um, I do have artwork on the way. [lol don't hold me on that]
Hope you aren't expecting Pokemon, because it isn't any of that :3

Also, if you are/were that specific 1 friend that decided to stop talking to me for whatever reasons recently, I would like to know why now plzkthnx. The fact that the only reason you talked to me was to pass a message to me from someone else, that is kinda hurtful.
Because yeah, you said I was such a close friend to you, why are you acting like I am a complete stranger all of a sudden?
[ignore this everyone, I really needed to say this somewhere]
-feeling down and crap-

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Firstly the things.
I haven't been feeling well recently, as most of you probably know by now.
And apparently talking about salt makes me want to pass out 0_o; Ok no maybe not but that happened today during lunch, I just happened to feel like that during a conversation about um...salt... for some reason. Yay I am so stable >.>;
/sarcasm

I have barely made art or anything this week, what a waste of a holiday ._.;

Anyway, I have been feeling better apart from feeling a little dizzy and stuff earlier.
Instead, I am feeling very nervous and uneasy right now.
And I don't feel like I have as much free time anymore... which is silly since I just had a week off work.
Speaking of work, I am gonna go back to working again tomorrow. I feel a little bleh about that idea because I just had a week off and typically for me, things I need to do present themselves right at the near-end of my time off work.
I feel so uneasy and I don't fully know why :/ Like a fear of messing something up.

I will be re-doing my dA family again soon, because most of the people on there don't even talk to me anymore.
Some of my friends have slipped away recently too, and it hasn't been because I haven't been around [for once] either.

Anyway, I stole this from because I felt like it
If I keep myself busy, I might kill some of this anxiety I have been feeling recently.

100 Things You Might Not Know About Me...
answer these questions then tag 10 people to do the same.

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
I have a scar on my back, which I got when I was younger during a chickenpox outbreak. For some reason I decided it was a good idea to scratch my back on a fire guard :l

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
A Chinese calender, my Harp Seal Pup picture and lost pieces of paint from where 2 commissioned art pictures once were.

3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
I know I must snore sometimes, and I know I have laughed in my sleep before

4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
Mostly romance music, however when I feel down I tend to listen to music that reflects on my mood/situation. Other than that, video game music.

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
Some time early in the morning, that is all I remember.

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
To stop feeling so full of anxiety... seriously! wtf is wrong with me right now?

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
The past friendships that I lost. Sure we all lose friends but in the case I mean, I don't even know where they went or anything [school friends etc]

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)?
Either my necklace [[link] and a bracelet a close friend made. [[link]

9. HOW TALL ARE YOU?
I wish I knew XD;

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
Only if very very crushed i between many many people.

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Not really. I actually enjoy the darkness sometimes.

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
I feel like leaving this one out.

13. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
I have quite a number of fears, but my biggest seems to be causing pain to those I love -lame-
Another would be living by myself... that is the main reason I still live with my parents ._.;

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
I have never understood why this should be important. I like people for who they are, not for what colour their -insert body part- is.

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING?
That would be a secret place. Don't feel like ruining the surprise C:

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
I don't like coffee, so energy drink it is.

17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Various XD

18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Sausage roll.

19. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME?
My favorite colour often changes, overall it has been mostly blue, red and orange.

20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH?
Why would I even consider doing that? o_o

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU'VE EVER RECEIVED?
It was a thank you gift from Emma Lambert [she lives nearby]. She gave me a rose as a 'thank you' for sticking up for her against a group of bullies.
But apart from that, the other one I don't feel like telling, sorry...

22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?
I am in a relationship.

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
I don't even know how to tell if I am XD;

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Pfft, clothes are clothes. Providing they fit and are comfortable, why should it matter?

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
77

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
-_- Why should I chose?

32. FAVORITE QUOTE?
"I live to give"

33. FAVORITE PLACE?
My bed. Sleeping normally is the only rest I get, though I do get a rather large ammount of bad dreams.

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
Ive never even been to USA

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
I have an everlasting fear of hurting other people, and quite often it interferes with my life and causes me to do drastic things... on some occasions the end result was even worse.

36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
Not really.

37. FIRST JOB?
I made caravans/trailers.

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Not that I remember.

39. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOULMATE?
Yes. But it doesn't mean that it will be easy to find them :c

40. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
Talking to

41. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
Many times.

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
Normally about how generous I tend to be, or how I spend most of my free time helping others.

43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?
No.

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Nothing. Heck, people are having problems knowing what to do for me on Christmas

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT AND THEIR NAMES?
I don't have a clue...

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
My middle name is James, my brothers middle name is Thomas.
Thomas and James... the tank engines? ._.;

47. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Normally those that are sexist or rather bossy. But I try not to judge.

48. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU LIKE(D) ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL?
Liked... I am not there anymore. And I miss it. Being with other people mostly.

49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
Whatever is there.

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
It isn't the neatest, but I guess it is ok.

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Sausages.

52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Can I class my own lack of self-esteem as one?

53. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON?
On rare occasions, normally when I feel like I was left out of something on purpose, which has been done.

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Possibly... how do I even answer that? If I was a different person, my personality might clash with my real personality etc.

55. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS?
I feel stupid because I don't fully understand this.

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
NO!!! And in my opinion, people that judge others for their looks are quite immature!

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
I normally vent it silently within myself, which gets me upset later on.

58.WOULD YOU RATHER GAIN 58 POUNDS OR LOSE 58 POUNDS.
If I lost that much, I would probably be non-existant... -is underweight-

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
A cuddly toy [plushie] fox that I names Hushky. And yes, I do still have him.

61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
*looks* 30

62.WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID?
That dinosaur? Nope, I don't think I ever even saw it on TV.

63. Do you use sarcasm?
Nooooo, of course not! C:

64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?
Never tried macaroni.

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
A sweet personality, since the soul personality is everything imo.

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
I have a few...
Spite, Kinka, Stee, Paw Guy, Stephon, Kinkanator, Mr. Kyaati

67. FAVORITE SUPER POWER?
Super speed.

68. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
It used to be the first Sonic The Hedgehog cartoon series [with Scratch and Grounder]

69.WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR ENEMIES?
As of recently, I have shown those I dislike nothing but kindness and things like that. It is weird how much that pisses them off.

70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Mint choc chip.

71. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES?
Yus.

72. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM?
Yes, and I paid for it... I also pay for the internet which is unfair since my father uses it more than I do now.

73. PLANS FOR TONIGHT?
Talk with my friends, read more of Warriors, sleep.

74. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE WHEN YOU ARE OLDER?
I always wanted to move to USA.

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
I would certainly like it if they did, but people tend to ignore me when I tag them so I am not getting my hopes up.

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
Nothing.

77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
Water.

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?.
0_o;;; No idea, was a few days ago.

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Personality when online, but irl you cannot help but notice appearance first since your eyes are normally the first thing that react. I don't judge by looks however.

80. WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME?
Help people... though I am starting to have less and less free time.

81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
To hate things that I hate?

82. FAVORITE SEASON OF THE YEAR?
Summer mostly.

83. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF CANDY?
Candy does not exist in the UK as such.

84. HAVE YOU EVER REALLY AND TRULY HAD A BEST FRIEND?
Yes.

85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
Dark brown. Some people confused it to be black.

86. EYE COLOR?
Very dull blue, my left eye also has brown.

87. SHOE SIZE?


88. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
I don't even know what its called, we just call it the 'Kebab', even though we never have kebabs from there.

89. FAVORITE RESTAURANT?
Never go to any.

90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
Never tried it

91. WATCH TV TODAY?
Nope.

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
I don't really know.

93. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS?
I used to have an acoustic guitar...

94. REPUBLICAN OR DEMOCRAT?
I don't care.

95. KISSES OR HUGS?
I have never been kissed apart from my mother when I was really young.
Though as for hugs, I love them, though I get pretty much none of them either.

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
One night stands seem pretty pointless to me, though I have never been on one so yeah.

97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
A box of Celebrations [chocolates]

98. WOULD YOU EVER BE A HOUSEWIFE?
Can a guy even be one?

99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
I just started Warriors A New Prophecy 'Moonrise' [book 2]

Random Fact #100
Um... I feel a little better now? It is true but not really a great fact.
k another. I am ashamed to admit certain secrets about myself, due to fear of my friends not understanding, even though these things are small and silly. Teasing will come out of it more than anything.

I won't tag anyone because idk.

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I've always wondered... what is your religious faith?
I've been highly criticized lately because I am an atheist. If you are not an atheist, do you have a problem with people who are? And if you are an atheist, do you find that people bug you about it?
Lol sorry- a lot of religious questions. xD;
I am Christian, however I haven't really had any problems with/about Atheist or other Christians or people from other faiths either.
Up until some time last year, I was always Atheist myself. I found reasons to take the faith however.
I have no reason to judge or dislike anyone for whatever they believe. c:
It is your life, believe in what you want ^^


And yes, I feel alot better now.


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